Sunday, March 30, 2008

Happy Birthday Cody!

Today is Cody's 14 birthday. I can't believe it. I can't believe he is actually 14. Remember last year's birthday post? I feel just the same this year. It seems like yesterday I was holding him tightly in my arms, watching him sleep. Time passes too quickly.

Happy Birthday Cody. I love you more than you know.
~mom

Friday, March 28, 2008

Horoscopes

I am not a horoscope kind of person... but there is a section on my MSN homepage where my horoscope is displayed. I got a kick out of today's.

Motivation must come from within, dear Scorpio. The only thing that can pull you out of bed is your own inner drive. And the fact that my alarm clock is going off.

Too much partying may leave you spent to the point that you don't even want to move. What?? I haven't partied like that since 1993! (Those were the good ole' days... no kids, no husband, no worries... gas was 99 cents!)

Remember to be moderate. Be good to your physical body. Yeah, right. I'm drinking a coke as I type.

Go outside and let your mind radiate outward like the rays of the sun. I'll pencil that in somewhere between 3 appointments scheduled for today, dealing with the ever increasing stress of what may be our new home, oh and trying to clean out 3 bedrooms and a garage for a yard sale tomorrow. I'll see what I can do about getting some rays of sun! Actually, I am a little pasty... maybe a quick trip to the tanning bed will count? :)

Feel the grounding of the Earth below. Whatever.

:)
~jen

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Just thoughts...

This is a long one... lots on my mind today...

Today has been one of those days that you just can’t wait to end. All day long it has just been one thing after another. First… Caden’s sick. He started going downhill late yesterday afternoon. After a short nap on the couch yesterday he woke up hotter than ever with fire-red cheeks. His temp was in the 102’s and he was very crabby. No real complaints of anything except a headache. His fever continued through the night and this morning he woke up complaining of a headache, sore throat, and an earache. After a trip to the doctor this afternoon, we found out he has an upper respiratory infection and the start of an ear infection. His strep and flu tests came back negative (thank goodness). We started an antibiotic this afternoon. Hopefully within a day or two he will be back to good ole’ Caden.

We were supposed to have the hydrostatic (water and sewer) inspection on the house completed today. Well it appears that the clean-out valve is covered by the back patio. I’m not quite sure what is going on or how to explain it better. The end result was that they were not able to complete the sewer portion of the test because a new clean-out valve has to be installed… which only means one thing to us… more money will be involved. The good news from today is that they were able to complete the water line part of the inspection and it looks good. They are returning to the house in the morning to install the new valve and finish the inspection. I am completely worn-out by this whole experience. I am so ready for this process to be over.

Cody returned to school today from his extended spring break. They had a snow day yesterday. I think he was excited to be back in school. It seems once spring break is over, it’s all down-hill. He only has about 9 more weeks of school left. Wow. It will be summer before we know it!

I received some sad news this morning. An area teenager (a senior in high school) took his own life over spring break. I discovered after reading the obituary that I knew his mother. She is an instructor at the college I attended. I never had her in class, just passed her in the hallway every now and then. She also helped with a number of our clinical return demonstrations. She was such a friendly staff member, always smiling. I was so saddened by this news. I can only imagine what a nightmare this has been for their family. He was just a senior in high school, only weeks before graduation.

I remember how hard high school was. I remember having those feelings of despair that I would never survive what it was that I was going through. I thought about this for a good portion of the afternoon. I figured that since this was the first day back at school since spring break and this teen’s funeral was yesterday that Cody would probably have heard about it at school. I decided to use this as an opportunity to talk to Cody. After I picked him up from golf practice and before we went inside the house I asked him if he had heard anything about the suicide. He answered yes, that he heard some of his friends talking about it. A number of his friends have older brothers and sisters who attended school with this teenager. I asked Cody what he thought about it. Suicide isn’t something that we’ve ever really talked about. Immediately the “wall” went up. It seems that whenever I have something important to talk to Cody about this “wall” goes up between us. All I hear from him is, “I know mom”, “I know what you’re going to say”, “You don’t have to worry about me”, “It’s not going to happen to me”. I don’t know how to get through to him sometimes. I don’t know how to break that wall down so that he will actually listen to me. I don’t know how to get through that whole “I’m invincible attitude” that almost all teenagers have. I don’t know how to break that mindset that only bad things happen to those people, people who live over there, people not like me. The truth is bad things happen to everyone. I don’t know how to get Cody to where he will truly listen to me… to lose that attitude that I as his mother am stupid and don’t know what I am talking about. I tried to tell him that I hope he never ever feels so lost, or so alone, or so sad, or so miserable that the only solution he feels is left is for him to take his life. I want him to know that he can come to us for anything. No matter what it is, we are always going to love him and will help him with whatever it is that is causing him hurt, pain, anxiety, worry, or anger. There is nothing that we can’t overcome together. I want him to know that there is Someone greater than all of us who will help him overcome whatever it is that is causing him pain.

I pray that he let that wall down just a little this afternoon to hear my words and my pleas to know that he is too valuable to us, that he is too special to us, that he is so loved by us to ever let anything or anyone break his beautiful spirit. I hope he feels loved, that he knows how special he is to us, how proud we are of this young man that is growing up too quickly in a very scary world.

So, that's my day today. It's now almost 9:30. I'm ready for bed. I'm ready for this day to be done. I'm ready for a better day tomorrow. I pray for the family of this teen that they too may have better days soon.

Love,
~jen

Monday, March 24, 2008

2 weeks until closing...

I can't believe we are just 2 weeks away to our closing date. Where has time gone? We had the home inspection last Friday. Only minor repairs are needed. We are focusing on the bigger ones like a few problems with some electrical, plumbing, and brick issues. Everything else can wait (until my dad can come for a visit!!). We had the radon inspection over the weekend and the results were within normal limits. The plumbing inspection is tomorrow. The termite inspection later this week. Wow. This is really real.

Hope everyone had a blessed Easter weekend. We spent part of the weekend with Mike's family. A fun, crazy time as always. It was nice to see everyone, even if it was just for a short time. Now if I could just make all the Easter candy disappear... to the trash. Every year it seems to increase by the bucket-full! That crazy Easter bunny leaves too many eggs filled with such tempting goodies! :)

~jen

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Happy Easter

Wishing you a Happy Easter. I hope everyone has blessed weekend.

~jen

Friday, March 21, 2008

Inspection Day... take 2

Today is inspection day. We finally have a contract on the house (2 and 1/2 weeks later from when we started!) and we've locked in our mortgage rate. I can't believe this is really happening. We've given our notice to the owner of our rent house, so no turning back now!
Please remember us in your prayers. So much is going on that my head is spinning. Everything seems to be crashing down at once. I know we will get through this. :)

~jen

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Spring is here!!!

Yes... you're on the right blog. It's just been updated a little! :)

Finally, spring has arrived. Goodbye to winter!

Oh, wait... I had a moment of temporary memory loss. I live in the Texas Panhandle. That means the weather changes at the drop of a hat! It is supposed to be near 80 today; according to one news station here... raining and/or snowing and temps in the 40's on Easter!

Nothing like hunting eggs in the freezing cold! :)

Have a blessed day!
~jen

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Inspection Cancelled

Well, another document has surfaced that has to be signed and mailed to the seller's before we can have the inspection, so we had to cancel today's appointment. The seller's realtor seems to get these documents to us one at a time, so our realtor is going to give him a call today to make sure we have ALL of the documents signed so we can proceed.

I am ready to get off of this roller coaster ride we are on.

~jen

Monday, March 17, 2008

Inspection Day

Tomorrow's the big day.... inspection day. I pray that there will only be minor problems to be resolved. We plan on attending the latter part of it. The boys are going to see the inside of the house for the first time. I am anxious about their opinions. Hopefully they will love it as much as we do.

Cody had his first golf tournament of the season today. He played in Lubbock. I didn't get to talk to him or Mike but just for a split second this afternoon. I don't think Cody had his best game today. Caden and I didn't attend. It has been very cool here the past few days. I didn't want to sit out in the cold all day today. Mike and Cody also had plans to play at another golf course in Lubbock after Cody's tournament. So, Caden and I stayed here and went to see a movie.

Cody has another tournament tomorrow at our golf club, so hopefully he will do much better playing on his own home course.

I'll be sure to post what we find out about the inspection and how Cody did in his tournament!

~jen

Monday, March 10, 2008

Dreams do come true

We are ever so close to being the proud owners of a lovely home in the southwest part of town. We finally agreed on a contract today and we on our way to having the American dream... our very own home. It is so very exciting and nerve-racking to say the least. We still have to get through the inspection and closing, but we are inching ever so close to realizing a dream that has been in the making for many months.

(I probably am breaking some type of copyright law by posting this picture... but I wanted you to see the house! I'll go take some pictures and post those in a few days!)

Get ready for an awesome house-warming party in a couple of months!!!

~jen

Saturday, March 8, 2008

A counter offer

Well... a counter offer has been made by the owners of the house. Mike plans to make one more offer. I on the other hand, want to just get it over with! I am happy to at least know they are willing to negotiate! Their realtor is "out of the office" until Monday, so nothing new will happen until then. Oh the drama of it all! :)
~jen

Numbers game

We found our home. It is in a beautiful older area of town. The house is 3 bedrooms, 2 baths, with 2 living areas. It has been totally remodeled on the inside. New carpet, tile, textured walls, decorator colors, new windows, new appliances, new kitchen cabinets, counter-tops, new lighting and plumbing fixtures, basically all the benefits of a new home in an existing area with beautiful landscape and large trees.

We made an offer yesterday afternoon. I'm letting Mike handle this part of the process. He's the number's guy (since that is basically what he does for a living!) so I am giving up that part of the home buying experience. Believe me though... I am still an active participant; I am staying up-to-date with the numbers game!

We still haven't heard anything, yet. Hopefully we will hear something today. This waiting game is so very hard. I hope (and pray) that this part of the process will go smoothly. I sure don't want to have to start all over if this house doesn't become ours. But... I know it will only happen if it is meant to be. :)

~jen

Friday, March 7, 2008

The wrong sandwich

Meltdowns around here can happen at anytime, for any reason. Case in point... a sandwich can make or break a normal morning routine. Yesterday, Caden wouldn't tell me what kind of sandwich he wanted for his lunch at pre-K. So, after numerous requests for him to tell me what kind of sandwich he wanted, and no reply... he ended up with a grape jelly and peanut butter sandwich.

Well, of course once he realized that he no longer had an opportunity to make his request AND the fact that I had made a grape jelly and peanut butter sandwich, the meltdown began. "I don't like that kind of grape jelly, I only like Granny's grape jelly" (which by the way... Granny's "grape" jelly isn't even grape, it's blackberry). "Make me a ham and cheese sandwich, not a grape jelly sandwich".

By this time a full tantrum is under way, complete with stomping feet and folded arms across his chest. It only escalated at this point because I wasn't giving in because a lesson had to be learned. He has to answer my questions and let me know what he wants, or he's just going to get what ever I make! So... stomping feet and folded arms quickly became thrashing and screaming. (Yes... I am talking about sweet, little, innocent, precious Caden.) By this point a spanking was needed... and delivered.

What makes it worse is we had to send him to school after the whole ordeal. Mike said it was a pretty sad sight dropping him off at school. He was definitely not in the mood to go to school after our morning! (To Keri and Teresa... I hope his mood improved. I can only imagine the look on his face and the comments he made at lunch as he pulled out that horrible grape jelly and peanut butter sandwich!)

Mike picked him up after school and Caden made one last comment... "I don't like grape jelly and peanut butter sandwiches, Dad".

Hopefully he learned a lesson about answering me when I ask "what kind of sandwich do you want?" :)

~jen

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

House Hunt

We are now down to the final 6 (yes... I said 6. I know it is a lot! You don't even want to know how many hours I have spent looking at houses on-line or how many gallons of gas I have used going to open houses the past 2 weekends!) Mike and I are going together Thursday morning (will we survive being together looking at houses?). Hopefully we will find the right one Thursday. :)
~jen

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Birthday Day

I can't let the day slip past without a quick birthday message for Mike (my older-than-me husband), Sadie (my favorite 3 year old niece; all my nieces are my favorites, she's just my favorite 3 year old niece!), and Renay (my very closest friend)!

Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday dear Mike, Sadie, and Renay...
Happy Birthday to you!


Hope you all had a wonderful day!

Love,
~jen

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Looking up

Things are beginning to look up (on some levels). I have been such a complainer for the past few weeks. So stressed about work, the house, Mike unveiled his 10 year plan for us (I'll go into that later)... everything seemed to become this one gigantic mountain in front of me. I am realizing that I can't go around it, can't go under it... got to go over it. So with baby steps and faith that He will guide me through this things are looking up. I am seeing things more clearly, letting go of some of the uncertainties that I can't control. I think that is by far my biggest problem... control. I want to control all aspects of my life. I want to keep a tight schedule and nothing should change. Well... life changes. I can't always be in control of everything. So... I'm learning to adjust.

A special thank you to Rebecca and Toby for always listening to me on Tuesday afternoon when I pick up Caden from their house. It seems lately that I use that time to download (and munch on some fabulous home-made sweet cinnamon popcorn!). Thanks to my wonderful friends Becky and Renay who have heard me complain non-stop for the past 2 weeks. Thanks for letting me cry when I've needed to, for offering advice and support... thanks for just being great friends.

I've possibly found a job within our hospital at an urgent care clinic. I spoke with the nurse manager there and she was wonderful. She's flexible with the schedule (and with 2 sports active boys that's a plus) and will have an opening within a month. So... please say a prayer that this is the job for me. I need a more stable job and one with benefits for the kids and I. We are paying outrageous amounts for health coverage right now. I am hoping that I can still stay on teaching on a PRN basis. We will see what happens though.

House hunting has been a struggle. I met with our realtor yesterday and we looked at 6 houses. Didn't really find the "right" one. One house would have what we wanted, but a tiny back yard. One would have a huge backyard, but the house wasn't what we wanted. Ugh. I have a list of 15 houses that are within our needs and wants, so hopefully there will be 1 in there that will be perfect for us. I have decided to take our time. I want to find just the right one. We are going to be in this house for a while, so I need to really like it.

While in the midst of a emotional-mental breakdown the other night Mike decides to use that time to unveil his 10 year plan for us. My thoughts.... What? Couldn't you have picked another time? Can't you see I'm already a little stressed? For US... and this is the first I am hearing about it? But anywho... the plan was unveiled. He has a dream to own a... wait for it... a golf shop. Imagine that. My husband the golfer wanting to own a golf shop! :) He wants us to have our home paid off in 10 years. He's created the budget for it. He's talked with our accountant about it. He's done research on owning a franchised golf store. What's more... he's serious. I've thought about it for the past few days. I'm getting on board with this one. Mike never wanted to be a car salesman. He had a dream to be a coach. He would have been a wonderful coach. He probably would have been one that yells... you know how I feel about coaches who yell... :) ... but he would have been great. Well a number of his dreams and my dreams fell by the wayside with a choice that we made. That little + sign on a pregnancy test that was revealed to us almost 15 years ago changed our lives for ever. Neither one of us regrets that little + sign because that little + sign has blessed our lives more than we can measure. I've reached a few of my dreams. I was able to find a way to go to college and earn my degree. As little as it is... it means the world to me. I want one of Mike's dreams to come true.

So... I hope he doesn't get mad that I've shared his 10 year plan for us. I think it is wonderful. I think another golf store is something that would benefit this area. We'll have to see what really happens during these next 10 years. I know though... amazing things are in store for us. :)

~jen

Friday, February 22, 2008

Latest Post

Sorry for the delay in posts. It's been a long, busy week. So here's the latest:

My grandfather's heart stent went well. He is doing fine. Caden and I stayed until last Sunday and came home in time to see the giant, wet, snowflakes falling! It was really a pretty sight! Thank you to those who called to check up on us. Thank you for your prayers.

My grandmother had a myelogram this past Monday and she is also doing well.

I had an interview with the home health department of the hospital this week. Still not sure what I am going to do. I think I would enjoy home health nursing, just not sure about the schedule and on-call requirements. I think I am going to just relax (or at least try to), give everything a few weeks and then look at my options (hopefully more clearly).

On to the good news... we were approved for a home loan this week. Mike received the certificate of approval yesterday. So... let's add another stressor to my life... buying a home. It's an exciting time, especially because we have wanted our own house for the past few years. Now it's about to come true. I've just spent the past hour or so looking online at houses. Mike and I haven't quite seen eye-to-eye on what we want ~vs~ what we need (and can afford).

I still can't quite believe that this is real. I keep waiting for the bottom to fall out and awake from a dream. Hopefully this process will go smoothly. I dread the added stress. It will be all worth it to have our very own house, though.

Hope each of you are well...
~jen

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Update

My grandfather had his angiogram this morning. He did well and will stay the night in the hospital so the dye can be flushed out of his body with IV fluids. He will have a stent placed tomorrow morning. Caden and I are leaving early in the morning to be with my family during his procedure. Thanks in advance for the prayers.
~jen

Prayer Request

My grandfather is in a hospital in Denton having an angiogram done this morning. Your prayers would be appreciated.
~jen

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Dude...

Cody has had 4 friends over this evening to watch the Super Bowl. I am ready for my house to be quiet once again. I think I have heard the word "dude" 100 times tonight. Boys.
~jen